I literally was just the worst fucking human tonight

Had a LONG day

A deep 121 consulting day with a crazy smart entrepreneur….

3 hour hot seats in EWD…

Making sure I trained, did all my content, replied to messages…

Finally got time to speak to the family (I’m totally fucked by this point) – was a very quick one to say thanks for the mug the sent me

Anna wanted to say hi

You know what I did?

Said I was too tired

(She does find conversations hard and it takes effort)

Said goodnight and went to go to bed

All she wants is to speak to her brother, Ive given (by choice) 16+ hours to everyone else and my sister wanted 5 minutes of my time and I was too tired

I sat down and realised what a selfish fuck I was

It’s easy to get wrapped up in calls, emails, social media, doing the work

And forget what’s important

Why we do the things we do

And so often our friends, family, loved ones – they bear the brunt of our desires and dreams

I learned the hard way that you can give people all the things and money and stuff

But often what people want is your time

A chat with me – for her – makes her day

And even though what I’m doing now is to prepare for her future

All she wanted was ten mins with her big bro

Which is what she got

🙂

(A tired, pacing around the balcony, trying to stay awake big bro who is doing this post from an Epsom salt bath as he’s fucked – but she got the last of my reserves!)

Don’t forget to take time for the special people in your world

I’ve found that all the dumb shit, arguments, social nonsense – whatever – doesn’t mean fuck all then you get down to it

There’s very few peeps you should give your all too; and often we forget who they are sometimes

Tonight was a good reminder

Life is made up of moments, and moments with the right people money simply can’t buy

Night CWD

PS hope you don’t think I’m a cock for sharing this; I still do dumb shit

Still human

Very easy to fuck this shit up hence wanted to share